MELTDOWN

Today @ work I had a MELTDOWN!  This was something that has been brewing for a long time. I've got a politician for a boss.  I say that because he tells you what you want to hear.  He's happy to kiss your hand and shake your baby shake your hand and kiss your baby.  He dishes out more bullshit than I have seen from everyday "common folk".  Today I put all the cards on the table and explained that something had to give or I would be looking for a new job.

What's the problem?  WORK, things are piling up like crazy.  My boss wants everything done and for me to give everyone status updates as to where their task is and to confirm receipt of having knowledge of receiving their task.  Plus he is constantly volunteering us for additional project and tasks.  Then he has his whole reporting system he wants us to look at like it's the fucking stock market.  Stats don't mean Shit to me because I'm not in management.

Meanwhile my boss is dreaming up new tasks for me and figuring out how he can make me jump through the hoops, while making himself look good.  It's all about him and his image.  It's important that other people like him and think that he smells of roses, despite the fact that he is human and prone to stink unless he showers or uses a hell of a lot of deodorant and/or cologne.

The lady that I work with has turned from a nice sweet person to a backstabbing bitch and now to a CUNT.  I've got no use for her.  Most anything she touches she rushes through and fucks it up, leaving me and others to fix her fuck ups.  Yeah, we need help but not this kind of help.  She will tell you to your face that she did something, knowing full well that she never even touched it.  Then she waits for someone to come screaming to me.  Why me?  Because I am the focal point of our group.  I excel at my job and often that means punishment in that people seek me out instead of others I work with.

Everyone on my team is feeling the stress and pressure.  The difference is they figured out that speaking up gets you no where fast.  You actually get more work or tasks from it.  Yeah, I found that one out today.  I was even offered mental help at no charge.  WTF!  Then I was told I could always kill myself and that would end my problems.  Again WTF!  Yeah, that kill myself thing was supposed to be humor, sick humor but humor. I'd sooner quit than kill myself because of a fucking job.  It's not worth my life! 

How to solve my problem and keep my job?  Easy, delegate I've got most of the work load.  I need to be able to pass some of it off to the cunt and others.  That will allow me time to focus and breathe much easier.

This is the most awesome job I have ever had.  Certainly the one that has paid me the most.  There are perks here that most other places don't even think of.  I don't want to have to leave nor be pushed out the door.  However, something has to give, because I can't keep going on like this.

We are all supposed to gather tomorrow for a meeting and if others don't speak up.

Why am I telling you this?  I've got to let as much of this out of my system as possible.  Stress is pure poison for me.  I don't deal with it well.  It takes over in my work, then my personal life and before you know it I've got one major cluster fuck going.  Things were so bad today that I was as close as I have ever been to resigning immediately.

I often preach the advice from the 12 step program ... take one day at a time, do one thing at a time and live moment by moment.  At least when it comes to work.  I've been told that is good advice.  I follow this but today things got far out of control.

What to do now?  Well first I need to have an orgasm.  Knowing me as you do, you probably saw that one coming (no pun intended).  Then I need a really rock solid night of sleep.  Tomorrow is a new day, I'll breathe and drink some water.  Then hopefully everyone speaks up tomorrow and we can get a good solid solution in place to not only help me but everyone. 

Both personally and professionally this has been a very trying week.  I hope and pray that the weekend and next week is better.  I do know that things will start looking up for me tomorrow evening because the weekend will be here.

Okay, now I'm climbing down off my soap box and going to try to return to my normal self.  Got to go find me some porn to look at, yeah that's the ticket! 

Thank you for stopping by and reading my babbling.  It means a lot to me.  Maybe you even got a chuckle from this post. 

Take care and hang in there Friday is around the corner.  I will try doing the same thing! :)