On my mind…Cancer

So a few weeks back I talked about a new porn star that I found.  I really like him.  There are plenty of guys to make me drool, it’s not difficult all you have to do is be good looking and have a nice butt.  Sounds pretty simple!

Well, this guy that I’m talking about has a name it’s Ryan Raz.  If your into porn no doubt you have heard of him.  He’s been around for a little bit.  Known for being a bottom.  He also gets into other things like fisting. 

When I was doing my research on him I was sort of surprised to hear at such a young age, he was diagnosed with Rectal Cancer last year.  He took some time off, had surgery and is back performing like nothing ever happened.

Rectal cancer like most cancers is nothing to play with.  It’s what my partner had and it’s what ultimately caused an end to our sex life.  Be that as it may, I took an extra close look at this cancer and found that anal play of any kind can cause this.  If your not careful you can cause small tears, which are also known as Fissures.  These Fissures in time can turn into cancer.  That’s scary.  A little pleasure today can turn into misery down the road.  I don’t think that is fair, but then again who ever said life was fair?

I’m glad that Mr.. Raz was able to recover and come back to performing.  He does a great job and is uber cute.  I’d invite him over any day of the the week.  In fact, I see he also does escorting.  I don’t have that kind of money but if I did, I’d be calling! :)

Anyway, back on point.  My partner always wondered if Anal play was responsible for his cancer.  Neither of us are into putting giant things in this tiny sensitive opening.  However, based on what I read it looks like it could have been. 

Why I am babbling on about this?  That’s a very good question.  I just felt like talking about it.  So there you have it.  

Thanks for taking time to read my babbling.  Here’s hoping that we find a cure for all cancer very soon!  It’s evil and has taken way too many good people from my life and for that I hate it (cancer) with a passion!

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Welcome to November

Here we are another week, another blog post.  I hope you all adjusted your clocks and enjoyed the extra hour of sleep. 

This past week has been stressful for me.  I know that comes as a surprise to you. **Wink**  My shoulders were really holding some serious tension.  I had 2 massages and they felt good, but only seemed to aggravate the situation.  Thankfully a couple muscle relaxers and some sleeping in seems to have done the trick.  I am ready for another week, physically.  Mentally I want to stay in my bed.

I’ve got one of the new guys out part of last week and this week.  He should be back mid-week.  I’m telling you that really kills us on our workload.  It’s hell for everyone but we manage.  Of course there are those demands that seem to waltz in at the last minute and they are requests that needed to be done yesterday but you didn’t find out about them until today.  I don’t like those either!

This new job has a lot of extras with it.  Be it pay and stress.  Not to mention I am so much more under the microscope.  I can deal with the stress but the microscope it’s too much fun.

On to pet health.  #1 son was and is sick.  He stopped going to the bathroom.  I had my partner take him to the vet.  They gave him a laxative and that seems to have helped.  However, he’s still not his normal self.  He is sneezing and clingy to us.  He lost another pound and is down to 7 pounds.  He is pretty much fur and bones.  His thyroid is way out of control.  We stopped with the cream medicine in the ear and switched to pills.  He doesn’t like it at all, but the hope is that the medicine will begin working again.  If not then we will probably be at a crossroads.  There is a radioactive procedure that will fix the thyroid but he has to be isolated for a month and it is super expensive.  The other choice is to put him to sleep.  While the vet hasn’t told us these choices, I know from prior conversations that this crossroad will be approaching if the medicine stops working.  I’m not happy about that.  I don’t want to loose my pal.  He’s the one who started it all.  We slept together last night and I’ve told him that I love him more.  He just kisses my nose.  He’s a sweetie. 

I took one of the big boys to the vet on Saturday for his shots.  He was the one who was really sick earlier this year.  Needless to say he was petrified of the vet.  These were better circumstances and it cost a lot less.  We got to keep them healthy. It’s a full time job with 7 of them. 

I’ve gone shopping crazy!  I bought cologne, skin care stuff, calendars, an umbrella and of course I couldn’t resist some new toys for the bedroom.  My partner and I have had a long standing conversation about e-stim.  I heard a conversation on Derek & Romaine on the way home a couple weeks ago.  I learned more about e-stim and what it can offer.  Sounds like it’s a blast.  Basically, low levels of electricity will cause your muscles to contract and relax, you will cause yourself or whomever this is used on to have an orgasm regardless if you want to or not.  The important thing is to only use these toys below the belt.  If you go above the belt, you could screw with your heart and that brings other problems, the major one being death.  Wow what a way to go.  Could you imagine seeing the look on the medical examiners face.  Ah well, that’s me and my sick humor.

I gave into the e-stim thing because of what I learned and I’d like to experience it once.  I didn’t drop a ton of money on it either, so that helps.  If you have had an experience with this, leave a comment.  I’ve only heard good things, but I’m sure there are some bad out there.  I’m nervous and excited at the same time.  It will be a while before it’s here.

I see a reminder on my calendar at work to call the doctor this week.  Time for that follow up blood work on my liver.  Wouldn’t you know it my diarrhea returned yesterday.  I think it’s a combination of coming off antibiotics and the muscle relaxers.  Hopefully, it will clear up.  I’ve already taken a serious dose of medicine that should turn it off quickly.  I will keep you posted on how the blood work turns out.  I’m hopeful that there isn’t anything wrong with the liver or anything else in my body. :)

Well, that’s it for now.  I’ve got to file away some paperwork, make a grocery list and take care of myself so I’m ready to go in the morning! 

Hard to believe it’s November.  Hopefully Mother Nature will decide to make it cold and I can break out my long sleeve shirts, even though I really don’t want to.  The weather is a crazy thing!

Cheers.

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Relaxing Saturday

Hard to believe it's Saturday again!  I was up early this morning and made my way to the dentist.  I got a clean bill of health so far as Oral Cancer and my teeth.  I'm used to that and very thankful.  I used to hate getting bad news.

Well my new role is going okay.  I am having fun delegating, it's kind of enjoyable.  However, there are times when I wished I would have done the job myself.  The best part is the people that I don't want to deal with I just pass off.  Now that's truly a perk.

We got to see our new digs this week.  Yep, were moving to another floor in our building.  One of my guys was out sick, so I took him up for a private tour.  I got in trouble for that one.  Then I sent out to management the top big dog took exception with the font I chose.  It was courier.  I like it because it looks like an old IBM Typewriter.  The comma's are what really does it for me.  Well, apparently that shows up silly looking on a BlackBerry.  So he told me how he didn't like it.  I wrote him back and I was quite the smart ass.  It all looked so innocent but I think he got my point.  I found out later that he circulated that to management and told them to start cracking down on the use of fonts in e-mail.  Wow, looks like someone doesn't have a life!  As long as it displays in English and it's readable, get over yourself.  The world doesn't bow to you, even if you do run the company!

In other news the bitch I work with took exception with me picking out my new desk.  She said "oh you just don't like people, no wonder you don't want to sit by us".  Nope that's got nothing to do with it.  I wanted to say no I love people with the exception of you because you are such a Cunt.  However, I just said that's not true.  I wanted that desk because it's away from everyone and with my position, I need to have some privacy.  I can't wait until we move in.  It's so fucking awesome we have mega, mega space.

The car is doing well.  I've needed some speed and when I press the gas pedal it gets up and goes.  I'm getting used to sitting low and it's not all that bad.  At least I'm not riding around in a shrimp mobile.  You know those cars that have two doors and look like an egg going down the street.  Yeah, you get into an accident in one of those mo fo's and your pretty much history.  I took my baby on the interstate and made the mistake of getting behind a concrete truck.  That will mess a car up quickly.  I got away from him as fast as I could.  Thankfully, no damage was done.  The best news is no need for a car wash this week.  God washed it for me.  Yep, it rained!

Earlier this week I got a nice welcome kit from Sirius Satellite Radio.  They encouraged me to activate service with them.  I've got a 6 month trial and after that it's supposed to be shutoff.  I did some research on line and one person said that the 6 month trial starts from the time you activate it.  However, the dealer informed me that it's 6 months from the time I took delivery.  I'd really like to sign up, but why shell out money if I don't have to.  I'm going to wait it out and see if they really turn my radio off.  It won't be until next year. 

The IPOD experiment I talked about in my last post, didn't work out so well.  It plays and sounds fine.  However, to control my IPOD I have to use it's controls and that causes me to have to take my eyes off the road.  So no IPOD in the car for me.  I'm back to radio and CD's.  That's not so bad. 

Friday night my partner picked me up from work and we went to visit our attorney.  We got our affairs in order.  Now the fun part of making copies of the documents, placing the originals in the safe deposit box and hoping that we NEVER have to use them.  I'm glad this is done so in our time of need, we can relax knowing the other is protected.

I've got so many magazines and crap on my desk here at home.  I am wondering if I will ever get it cleaned off and looking pretty again.  I suppose all things in time. 

Monday night will be a long one for me.  Were going back to that awful upgrade we did.  There are other things that need to be done after hours and let's just say it's going to be a very long day.  So long that I may not be back at work on Tuesday.  Funny thing is that is my partner's Birthday.  Funny how that just worked out. :)

I got my partner a pair of Crocs.  They have a removable liner and look rather comfy.  I got a pair for myself as well.  I'll be trying them on tomorrow.  I've been wearing my boots and they are just killing my feet.  However, they are great for being on my feet all day long.  Ah, this getting old thing with aches, pains, etc. gets tiresome really fast!  I know I'm still young and have a lot to look forward to before things get really bad for me.  It's just that from what I have been through thus far I really don't want to get older.  Too bad there isn't a pill that could keep us 30ish for years, heck I'd even settle for 25. 

Speaking of which I know I like the younger guy.  There have been so many good looking guys pass in front of my eyes.  I want to have them all but that's just not reality.  Y' all know my situation (if not check back in the history, it's there).  Well with being a good boy and taking care of things myself will only last for so long.  Eventually, you want the real thing.  I've been wondering when that will happen and if I will turn into some evil monster and just try to have my way with someone.  I'd really just like to hit it off with someone but just have a sexual relationship.  I've already found the person I want to spend the rest of my life with.  There is a guy at work that I think I could have a chance with, but I really don't ever want to mix business with pleasure.  That is a sure fire recipe for disaster with a capital D.  There was this waiter where we had lunch at today that looked so yummy.  He caught me staring at his ass and I got a dirty look.  That's what you get for wearing an earring and looking hot.  It's not my fault, my hormones and my body want to ravish another human being, preferably younger (24 to 30) than I am.  It's all about looks and if you have them my eyes go crazy. 

That would be a good seg way for me to go look for photos to post.  Ah, delicious hot men.  Wanted here!  What can I say a man has needs! 

Here's hoping that all is well in your world and that next week moves fast for all of us.  Take care and thanks for stopping by!